Back and In some shit

Ok it’s been a hell of a long time since I have written. Anyways this closet freak has gotten her self in to some shit. Yeah I know what she could have possibly gotten herself into. Well people of the world let me put it this way I have slept with some one who I should not have. I mean technically there is nothing wrong with that except for the fact that he as girl and a child who lives with him which in my book practically make him off limits. Did that stop me? Well for awhile I put up a valiant fight and resisted everything he was throwing at me. Ladies out there let me tell you he was saying all the sweet things and bringing me flowers and candy. Calling me everyday, seeing if I am ok. I was like lord have mercy why couldn’t he be single. Anyways one night I finally said fuck it and let it go down. And go down it did. I mean he laid it on me like whoa. I almost begged him to leave his girl and stay with me. That would have been so un-diva like but hey the dick was just that good. Then he had the nerve to make sure that I knew that I was spoken for going forward. Cause for pause? Hell yeah. How in the hell is this man claiming me and I can’t even return the favor because he is ALREADY taken.

Ok so now I am in petite crises (small crises). I am falling for this man. Yeah yeah say what you want. I know I am fucked up for even getting involved with a man in a relationship. By my own definition this makes me a home wrecker or whore. “sigh”. You would not believe how many times I have had this conversation with this man before we actually crossed the line. But that’s neither here nor there. Like I was saying, I have fallen for him and I know he has some kind of feelings for me just not the same as I do “sigh”. This is a pathetic by my own standards but this is the shit I am in. I don’t want to give the good dick up but I truly can’t have it because it’s some other female.

What the hell is this closet freak to do?